Just Jie Yang now.

Taking into consideration that I was fore-warned by Mr. Yeow that vulgar language is prohibited on my blog, I shall attempt to show my utter rage at tonight’s events.

After H3 today, I went to eat dinner alone at Golden Rooster, as I had to rush back to school to meet my dad where he would give me a change of clothes and then rush me down to Boon Lay by 1915. I got scolded for an apparent taking-of-my-own-sweet-time, then hastily went down. I saw my group mates for MP Attachment Programme sitting at a pavilion, and upon asking found out that the officer’s number lacked a digit. So we tried addition of random digits till I gave up and called up the teacher I/C again, previously called by my group leader. Miraculously she picked up and gave us the number.

And then the officer told us that the Meet-the-People Session was. CANCELLED?! God the meaning of “pissed” and “rage” was seriously made know man. And the teacher told us not to be too disappointed. But I am more than just disappointed seriously. Like is this the kind of administration efficiency we should expect of an officer serving the MP.

That is a question that I’ll ask my MP next Monday, which I will most promptly call before heading down.

H3 test was no better. Wasted my whole day and last night studying part II and III of notes when only part I was tested. Really stupid. And I couldn’t summon any lasting memory. I guess this is the only test I am gonna take, so yeah I doubt I’ll be able to do better next time.

Really really pissed now. I want to do work but my eyebags yell for reprieve. And I have a two page letter to write to Mr. Poh (not Edmund) to say why I didn’t bring my Proteomics notes. I think I will cement my legacy as the King of Bullshit from this day on.

Breathe and let’s go. Yes Mommy I hear you.

[edit@5 minutes later]
I just realised something good did happen today. No I did not charm any girls. I did stun my math teacher, who is incidentally a woman, by getting B for math. But the stun effect probably wasn’t as strong as Tianyu’s.

She missed A by 2 marks.

I wanna learn all this shit on youtube but I have no time. And my family stares at me (I think) when I do funny actions at home. And I think it really sucks to be so tall because whatever you do you just look weird. But I don’t think you all will be able to understand, no one’s body is like mine? So disproportionate.

I have no mood nor energy to do anything. Not exactly laziness. It’s more than laziness, like just one plane above that makes all the difference. Last night Sarah wanted to tell me something in greater detail but I told her I wanna go and sleep. Now that’s just pure pig. This morning did some combo of pushups bicep curls pushups bicep curls and sweat like mad, which is un-pig-like. I have no idea what’s into me man.

I think this can be termed, physically motivated but mentally uncharged, and I defy the law of thermodynamics by tending towards less entropy in my system. So bipolar. Then again my body is totally under siege from shoulder down. So I guess it matches.

Hmmm.

Studied H3 today, burnt half my brain while trying to stuff in ~50 pages of notes straight up into the great storage tank, and now I’m trying to cope with this massive amount of information swimming around. I have about twice more the amount to go, all case studies, every page filled with memorisable stuff, it’s really hard to glue yourself down. I want to do complex numbers too, but I want to at least pass this test. This half an hour test which requires don’t-know-how-many-more-hours to study.

And I have this super duper long day on Monday, I realised. I have a 2 hour long Econs lesson to end the standard day, followed by proteomics lesson, then after rushing down lunch I have to hop down to Boon Lay Drive for my first Meet-the-People session under MP attachment. A very very bleak start to the week.

Some pictures of this week:

Silver mirror from Tollen’s reagent. Very pretty. I felt like an alchemist.

Went West Mall a while with Tan Yi Ming and Wei Sheng too, they needed to get stuff and I needed to get a life so yeah. The keychain totally resembles Jingxiang’s face when he does the heart sign and says “MY ___ ___!!!!”

Live performance by TIT. The reason why I don’t feel much loss when I don’t go to his public performances. I’m going for Lumos’09 though, and so should you. It’s a great week to end next week at least.

I am considerably happier with the massively encouraging comments I received on Wednesday. First one came from Miss Teo, who said that my hair looks great “short hair is my strength”, very very cool. She said that on Monday or Tuesday when she went assembly she saw someone damn handsome and was wondering who was it. Then turned out is ME. Wah the feeling damn shiok but then I hope like. Preferably someone from my own age says it. Will mean much more.

Second compliment came from ZHUTIANYU. Don’t play play. She say my ass damn hot. Whoahoho I even asked her to repeat twice to confirm. When I left my seat, she went to take mine and then she sat down and remarked “Wahlau Jie Yang your ass damn hot.”

I feel so good already!

And a happy song to raise the atmosphere.

Dinner @ Aston’s after blocks. Got owned at Biology, Chemistry but I don’t freaking care, I put in quite a lot of effort (though I entered the classroom unsure of some stuff), and I think I deserved a really good break. Squashed with guys, I brought shoes this time, and I totally sucked at the start, nearing the end was much better, but still not very good. I think I’m just plain too violent. Being violent is a faster response than playing smart and I don’t really like using brains cause it would defeat the purpose of mental relaxation, isn’t it?

Anyway, Martin is quite cute, JingXiang is being disgusting and no comments about Weisheng. I am beginning to really like arranging photos like that. It makes it look so much more… professional in a way? Noob trying to act pro!

And enjoy this wonderful video, it’s the closest you can get to sleeping with the handsome Lee Wei Sheng. Girls please hold yourselves down. Don’t pukecry with joy at this amazing footage.

THERE’S SCHOOL TOMORROW WAHLAU. Why didn’t the school set aside marking days to rest our minds, seriously.

I need Red Bull + Gingko concentrate. As in Red Bull concentrate and Gingko concentrate. Then I’ll be able to squash any puny question or store any lump dung in my brain. Today like ji duo people tell me my hair is weird?! Eh please, people trying to have new image la. When I have longer hair it seemed so emo, and short hair really makes me look brighter (as in more energetic AND smarter).

Look smarter only, anyway. I feel so damn miserable over not being shortlisted for OCIP Vietnam. It’s like nearly every J2 who got in is from an arts class?! Sigh after I persistently hounded my parents and finally convinced them to let me go, now they’re telling me I am not shortlisted. So disappointing. This system kinda sucks you know? I mean if we really want to compete on equal terms then I should have just put down my Sec 4 MSG too, I’m sure I’ll thrash quite a few J1s. 1.11 please, if you don’t want to count O level Higher Chinese. If you count that it’s perfect 1.00 don’t fool around. My promos was just… an accident. COME ON LOOK AT THE OTHER RESULTS THEY ARE ALL ABOVE AVERAGE.

Okay I’m just being whiny but it has seriously diminished my motivation to get better results like Jing Xiang. I really really wanted to go. But the mugging has paid off I guess, I actually found that math was not very very very difficult. P and C took super long, integration to get volume + 1st vector question was horribly done (actually it’s blank) but I think I should be able to break the 45% mark for once. PLEASE. Just once. To boost my sagging confidence. MTSGG sigh. (Math test seriously Good Game)

Organic chemistry is being a total mungdagusfletcher now. I have no idea how to squeeze every reaction mechanism into the brain and stop it from rolling out just as fast. Equilibrium seems pretty okay at the moment though. PLEASE DON’T HAVE A MASSIVE GENOCIDE TOMORROW AT CHEMISTRY. And I’m gonna do biology now. Apparently, the comparison between gene expression of eukaryotic and prokaryotic cells is important. So yeah bless you all BC__ people.

Oh and Hiroshi can you just go die, you PGME. So sickening to see you so free at the moment.

ONE LAST WHINE: H3 LESSONS START ON THURSDAY, TEST ON NEXT MONDAY = MUG TILL NEXT MONDAY THIS IS NOT FAIR ARGH.

Blogger really really sucks. Yesterday, I wanted to post, but they didn’t allow me to upload photos. So okay, fine, I uploaded to Photobucket. Then I typed out everything, and I couldn’t save (I knew something bad was impending). So I directly published. And when I published they told me they can’t, because, apparently my request seems automated. And before that they told me their server were experiencing problems. Super pissed, it wasted about 40 minutes of my time. If not for the fact that this blog has Pagerank 3 and the site stats are so painfully established I would have forsaken it already.

Anyway, my Sennheisers are cracking up. The connection ain’t that great anymore, but the sound is as crisp as ever. Much like an old person going into retirement, I’m trying to keep them two in employment (in my ears) till at least June so that I can probably get a new pair to replace them at the IT fair (that’s job fair for the earphones).

I am like looking at these, but they all cost >150 bucks? Seriously, I think I’m going way out just to let myself be isolated from noise and to get real good audio quality.

The Bose ones cost like 349. Not sure if they are in US dollars or not. Sigh I think the Sony are like the best value for money at 149. But 149/10 weeks is like. I don’t know, I have to save erm 14 dollars a week, or nearly 3 dollars every weekday, which is mad. That’s like eating one meal less, which is not the way to go. My dad is asking for the gurantee card now. Oh well, I actually have no faith in maintenance. My N73 was so screwed up after sending it to fix the connection and they resetted all the hardware.

And yesterday there was this like very gloomy weather that blacked out the whole of the coast up till the JTC building which is next to Jurong MRT, and it seemed so set on pouring in my neighbourhood, but… it just cleared up. How nice. It drizzled later in the night though, cooling the night but not ruining the atmosphere.

And I really hope that if my life is going to remain like that I will eventually make the most of it. I may not be number 1, but I’ll always be the only one. （Quoting from 一切完美。）

Oh, and everybody GOOD LUCK FOR BLOCKS TOMORROW. Howard, Tzin Wai, WeiSheng, Weilin, Chenchi, JingXiang, Weekian, Zelei, 79 + all my friends let’s all do well tomorrow!

So darn irritated now, all the nice photos with the great lighting and the great subject Andre Lee has disappeared SOMEWHERE. Not in my phone not on the memory card. Not deleted too. JUST GONE. !$@#%, seriously.

Anyway, yesterday was pretty amusing, Weilin, Jingxiang, Chong Tee, me and Ivan went to the supermarket. We were buying grapes, and while we were paying the first two guys were commenting on the country where the grapes came from, which is South Africa, and Weilin went, these are war-torn grapes or something like that.

(In case you didn’t know, it is not South Africa that is war-torn. It is the other parts of Africa that face a lot of poverty-related problems.)

Continuing on, a lady (angmoh) then immediately went up to Weilin and told him very very curtly that “South Africa is not war-torn”. It was so mighty cool I swear. But to show even how shallow we were, Jingxiang went on to say, “South Africa is like SINGAPORE very 繁华。”

I thanked the lady, paid for my grapes and left with Ivan immediately.

No, not gonna blog in Chinese. Today I had a pretty unproductive day of sorts. I did was on a killing spree for Energetics, something that does not usually need to be proud of, but in times like these any morale booster, is a morale booster no matter how small, and Weilin stopped me, not a wrong answer, to ask me some P and C question that proved to be my brainiest moment for today, save for the fact that he did not understand my utterly brilliant explanation. Only people with SMO training and above could understand me (a.k.a Jingxiang).

And if Jie Yang can do chemistry, so can you. So Edmund no stress your chemistry will still pwn in the end. Okay wait I must use proper standard England English to type out what I want to express. I meant, Edmund, no stress because your chemistry is still excellent, it’s just for the moment. Though I will probably get torn apart by Ionic Equilibria tonight and be sad tomorrow. I doubt I’ll be going shopping alone as I planned tomorrow. Miss Teo said Virus and Bacteria are fairly important, so I have to make this noble sacrifice of leisure hours to make up for the increased workload (no increase in productivity, discrepency in the GMR (Gross Mugging Results))

Anyway, I realised I have nothing to do online lately. No manga releases = no manga to read. No JakeandAmir/Collegehumour uploads = no videos to watch. No one online = no one to talk to. So saddening. Nevertheless squash kept my mind occupied in the afternoon. The friction (caused by my mind numbing speed) caused my toe’s skin to get ripped off has led me to the realization that it is no point being so developed muscle-wise when your skin cannot keep up. KIDDING. I will wear shoes next time, I promise.

Chinese phrase to learn for the day: squash = 壁球， not墙球。